Drafts

Put That in the Other One in There
July 25, 2025
– A curious, grounded look at how men and women often speak from different maps—and how much more interesting communication gets when we stop expecting others to talk like us.
Orion in That Hideous Strength: What the Stars Reveal
July 17, 2025
– Orion appears twice in C.S. Lewis’s That Hideous Strength, marking turning points for Mark and Jane. This post traces the symbolic weight of the constellation across ancient history and its quiet role in the novel’s moral structure.
the Chosen Heads who never die
June 15, 2025
– In this scene, the Director reflects on a terrifying vision: the attempt to preserve human consciousness indefinitely by separating it from the body.
When do we bow?
June 10, 2025
– For many of us, especially those from non-liturgical or low church backgrounds, bowing in worship feels foreign—maybe even uncomfortable.
the white owl
June 10, 2025
– In Chapter 10, Dr. Dimble returns from a tense conversation with Mark Studdock. As he walks, a white owl flies across his path — a moment described briefly but with intentional vividness.
The Psyche as an Open World Game
June 6, 2025
– Exploring the challenges of AI therapy's infinite conversations and the importance of structured therapeutic frameworks.
A Gentle Warning Against Contempt
June 3, 2025
– A reflective piece exploring how contempt often hides fear or shame, and how curiosity and compassion offer a better way.
Every Day Fills the Whole Life
June 1, 2025
– A brief look at the hrossa’s wisdom in Out of the Silent Planet and how it challenges our tendency to cling to the past or long for the future, leading to a desire to control.
What Is a Madrigal? (And What It's Like to Sing One)
June 1, 2025
– Part musical form, part human memory palace—the madrigal is an art of listening, layering, and trust. A brief history and a glimpse into the life of a madrigal singer.
When Enough Is Enough
May 30, 2025
– In Perelandra, C.S. Lewis explores the moment we’re invited to enjoy life—but not grasp at it. It’s a lesson about innocence, restraint, and the danger of making pleasure into something cheap.
The Peita as foreshadowing in Book One
May 27, 2025
– A proposal that Ransom's mythic journey is foreshadowed by a hint of the Pieta in chapter one, when he meets the 'old woman'.
The Pack Over the Gate
May 27, 2025
– C.S. Lewis’s portrayal of Ransom throwing his pack over the gate in Out of the Silent Planet illustrates touches on a common, but overlooked aspect of decision makeing, where action precedes resolve and the body knows before the mind.
Things that grow
May 26, 2025
– A story of a family remembering on Memorial Day
The Depths of Being
May 23, 2025
– C.S. Lewis’s portrayal of Mr. Bultitude in That Hideous Strength explores a primal, prelinguistic form of consciousness—one that lives in the warmth and depth beneath thought. Lewis invites us to consider a kind of knowing rooted not in analysis, but in presence, innocence, and unbroken being.
At Night
May 21, 2025
– A reflection on the BCP’s 'At Night' prayer, exploring mortality, rest, and the sacred rhythm of surrender.
Poverty of Meaning
May 21, 2025
– A meditation on restlessness, alienation, and the quiet signal that a deeper journey is ready to begin, drawing from Chapter One of Out of the Silent Planet.
The Courtesy of Deep Heaven
May 21, 2025
– An example of the generous image of God offered to Jane in That Hideous Strenth
Vanishing Silence
May 21, 2025
– Modern life resists the very conditions that allow for deep thought, creativity, and spiritual insight. There is a psychological and symbolic importance of quiet, and even boredom.
Any child loves rain
May 18, 2025
– A meditation on the quote from C.S. Lewis's 'That Hideous Strength' about children and weather.
The life of a Word
May 11, 2025
– This word began as a word of prayerful pleading, used to ask that harm be turned away. Over time, it evolved into a signal of disapproval—first in moral discourse, then in technology, where it now marks what once served but is no longer recommended.
Not Hand-made, Finger-made
May 11, 2025
– A reflection on digital craftsmanship, coding, and the meaning of “finger-made” work in a screen-based world.
Large Numbers
May 10, 2025
– A reflective guide for readers of Out of the Silent Planet, exploring reverence, immensity, and the inner limits of knowing.
The Magic of Creativity
May 3, 2025
– A reflection on coding, music, therapy, and how understanding becomes a form of modern spell-casting—unlocking deep creative fulfillment in various domains of life.
The Characters of That Hideous Strength — A Cheat Sheet
May 2, 2025
– A quick reference guide exploring symbolic roles and contributions to the story's themes.
First Contact, First Communion: Wine and Bread in Malacandra
May 2, 2025
– At Ransom’s first encounter with a hrossa in C.S. Lewis’s Out of the Silent Planet, a shared drink and meal echo the Anglican sacrament of Holy Communion in gesture, if not in liturgical order.
Git Tips
April 28, 2025
– Just my own tips for what I can't seem to remember
Did It Ever Come Into Your Mind?
April 28, 2025
– A striking remark from Mother Dimble about the limits of what anyone—especially a husband—can reasonably be expected to hear
Off the Road to Nadderby
April 25, 2025
– A reflection on sacred detours, drawing from C.S. Lewis’s Out of the Silent Planet. When the path of comfort is closed, the true journey begins.
The Mind Without a Body
April 23, 2025
– In That Hideous Strength, C.S. Lewis warned of a future where intellect is separated from life itself. Today, as AI advances, his vision feels disturbingly close to home.
Could We Live as the Order of St. Anne’s?
April 2, 2025
– Is it possible to reverse-engineer a daily rhythm of life from C.S. Lewis’s Ransom Trilogy? A modern Anglican thought experiment in living aligned with cosmic order. Interestingly this includes a theology of heaven, but in the sense of 'the heavens', not the afterlife.